4.5.2011
My dearie baby, sorry mommy waited for so long to upload this blog..
Remember mommy did a blood test on 20th April 2011? However, on 27th, mommy received a call from Dr. Lim, saying there is increased risk on the ratio of the down syndrome, in simple words it means you might not be a healthy baby... She suggested me to do amniocentesis test (抽羊水), though there is 1% risk, but it is the most accurate way so far for an accurate result... And the worse case is to give up you :'(
Mommy was sooooooooooooooooo upset listening her words through the phone. I kept bearing it until I saw daddy. Both of us cried, sadly, really sadly. That is the first time I felt my heart breaking...Daddy was so upset. We don't want to leave you, never...
This first night, I can't sleep well. I have nightmare. I woke up sitting on the bed, and can't stop crying in the middle of the night... That was really a very very very unforgetable night...
28th April, the next day, we visited Dr Lim to get the report and listened to her advise. A normal ratio on our age should be 1:1200 (means among 1200 people there is only 1 at risk). However, my result is 1: 160 which is below the standard of 1:250 and that is why considered as increased risk... Dr Lim confidently said that it is a minor procedure and so far all cases that she did is safe with healthy baby. This really calm us down. After consider for about 10 minutes, we decided to do on the spot. However, dearie, u are not cooperating on that day hur... :) your little leg block the position. And my amniotic fluid also not much enough to do the test. Therefore, have to postpone to do on 4th May. Hopefully everything is fine and alright.
That few days we were suffering. Mommy also keep doing research on this down syndrome. It is scary... My only hope is to have you in me healthily. People telling me it is painful doing the test. I don't care. I wanna be brave, for you, for daddy, for our family. Mommy really really love u....
On 4th May, we reach at 8.30am for the test. You were so obedient that day. Mommy is afraid, but I will be brave for you and overcome everything. With daddy standing in front of me, I closed my eyes for the procedure. Seriously, it is not that pain that I thought. It is like doing an blood test injection, just that the position is different. It is below the tummy. Thank god, the procedure only take 5 minutes. Mommy were told to rest at home for two days after that. Before we go off, we reminded Dr Lim to scan for your gender. She almost forgotten about this! Finally, we saw your penis. hahaha! so cute! Now we know you are my boy boy. I will stop calling you girl girl since today! my lovely boy!
The 2.5 week for the result is most suffering. The reason why is because the cell will be sending to Mount Elizabeth in Singapore for the lab test. It takes times to revert. But mommy and daddy is more confident that you are a healthy boy. As I remain happy, I know you will also be healthy and happy inside me. Mommy bought you a story book, we started to read you a story everyday before sleep. Are you listening to us? Daddy read the story for you mostly, and Mommy sing for you!
On 23th May evening about 4.30pm, Mommy received the call from the hospital again. It is the nurse. My hand is shaking, i was so nervous... Fortunately, i heard the phrase "NORMAL"! I repeat my question thrice, the nurse said you are a HEALTHY BOY!!! After hang up the phone, mommy can't help crying out happily, immediately mommy called daddy, and he is also sooooooooo happy on the other phone. We love you my dear! You are the most brave baby in the world!
Mommy and daddy really so happy. The happiness continue until today. Tomorrow we will going to meet you up again. Remember wave your little hand and say HI to Mommy & Daddy ok? My dear boy, you are so great!
I wish all the happiness and all people around me will not leave me. I really hope so... I will treasure every moment, every people, every everything around me. Please, do not play a joke with me again. Please.....
See you tomorrow boy boy. We love you so muchie....
Loves,
Mommy
